I SMELL LIKE COUTURE

this is what everyone should look like. i love these two bitches.


note: vero thanks for the pic.

omg this is so true...

ugh okay so if you dont like it then just dont fucking do it. stop complaining about how other people lead their lives and worry about yourself.
why do people complain about what other people do, as long as it doesnt get on your business then leave it alone.


and yeah so what if i dont want to open my eyes and look at the real world. i live in my own world, and i dont need standards from anyone. what is the real world anyway? i'm real, and everything i do is truly happening. thats all that matters.




also thanks to all my friends for making my birthday so amazing, if you didnt call me or said anything to me, then fuck you.


im being mean and obnoxious because im angry. im sick of seeing people complaining about how bad things are, when they dont even put effort to make things better.

so fucked up weekend like whoa.
friday i went to the pawn shop with daniela and carolina. we bought beer and mike's lemonade and drank lots of those before going in. friday was fun as fuck, i danced like a puta. i saw amanda, and me and her went around and stole drinks. then i got really drunk, and random people came and bought me more drinks. it was all crazy. michelle drove me home, and i had to carry a trashcan with me so that i dont puke in her brand new badass car! i <3 michelle!

saturday was soo drepressing, because i woke up with a hungover, and i felt angry for some reason. then bianca,danielle and kim picked me up and we went to kelly's, stayed there for like 3.6 minutes and then went to kyle's.
bianca and everyone else got pretty drunk and it was fun.
i drove bianca in a shopping cart all the way to the back of fox's lounge and dropped her off there. she said she needed to meet up with barbara.
then kim and i left, bianca refused to get in the car with us because she said she didnt wanna die. ha, bitch we aint dead. HO! i looove you.


at the bank gettin our dough

( ringworms )

fuck i hate those days when you just look like shit....lately ive been getting them like twice a week. this sucks because i just to try to avoid them and only get them about once or twice a month, but since my life sucks so much and i talk so much shit i end up just looking like shit.
bianca a.k.a candi captured this in a pic today...see i was trying to pretend like i had a fupa, so i put my sweater down my pants and tried to shape a fupa, but it ended up looking more sick than an actual FUPA.

im fucking gross

look
( fupaliscious )

so i think that a lot of people around me got to think about death today.

i'll be honest, im very fascinated with the concept of death. a lot of people however are scared and get very irritated when the word death comes around. i dont see why, beeing that death is the one only thing that is garanteed to all of us from the moment we're born.
of course it hurts when someone close dies, but i wish society overall was just more open about dying, that way we will all be prepared when that one close to us dies.


















think i just talk with such security because im not afraid of dying, but i know that i will just die inside when someone really close to me dies.

man i ate awesome portugese food for lunch today, it was good as fuck.


so this was a good weekend. friday i went to the pawn shop with michelle, met up with kevin, amanda, xavier and linda. it was really packed but i didnt care cuz i just wanted to dance. saturday i went to BB's birthday and ate lots of food. it was fun, we also played bingo, photo battle, oh and we hung out with mr. friedman. it was intense, she even had a pinata.

XAVIER! happy birthday babylove. i looove you, and i had fun in your party last night!

these kids are awesome...i love all of you

( infections )

so today i skipped 4th period with candi again...and she took pics of my new haircut. i dont know, but i love my new haircut, i dont care what chu think.


this is what i look like

skipping class in palmetto...

so i love how bianca and i skip class and walk around school hiding from the terminator. today mej and i almost got caught by him, so i told bianca that we had to be careful if we wanted to skip 4th period. she had vy-la, and i had math. it sucks though because in math today i had to turn in my midterm essay, but i wasnt there...well i didnt even do it anyway.
anyway happy birthday BB, we gonna go mad clubin now and dress up like hoochie mamas every weekend. bianca is not allowed to go because she's prego.





( coochie )

im destroyed in the inside.


good start to the new motherfuckin year.

so 2004 is gone...my new year's celebration sucked ass...but i promise ill makeup for it tonight.


2004 was a good year, i learned many things, and i discovered myself in more ways. i had a lot of new experiences, some which were bad and others good. however i try not to regret things, which until today i can say that i dont regret one thing ive done.


i just created an assortment of pics that truly show what 2004 was for me. i mean not truly, but they truly show the good things...which is what one wants to remember.

i wish everyone a happy new year...and here is to look back at my 2004.


( 2004 )

merry christmas everyone.


oh i also love how skinny lindsay lohan is getting...that really makes me happy.

i miss everyone.
washington was fun.
im in boston now in my aunt's house, and its boring here because she lives too far from the city for me to go there. tomorrow im taking a train and getting out of her lame ass house.
the 26 im out to the big city, the love of my life new york city. i cant wait until im there.


i love adriana for missing me so much, and im sorry your goldfish died.

so the weekend is over. ive been waiting for this weekend for months, and now is over. my parents will be here any minute now, and im just sittin here updating my livejournal.
yes it was fun, but not what i expected, maybe because last night sucked, but i guess it was a good weekend. having lauren here with me was amazing, i love that girl, and i already miss her.
anyway here are the pics from the weekend.




( stuff us on )

pffft so i have to wake up at 4 am to drive my family to the airport...those lame ass hoes are going to mexico and leaving me here all alone...well with my fat bitchy house keeper....but oh well....its gonna be a party at mah crib! just call me up if you wanna come.
so thanksgiving weekend better rule....last weekend was aright i took some pics....



( pffft )

so my best friend from my trip to new york is coming down tomorrow. lauren lives in dallas, texas and is coming with her parents to spend thanksgivng here. im really excited because shes an awesome girl and we are awesome friends.
so watch me and her have an awesome week here at miami.



thats us btw....we're two hot bitches together...hahaha
!!!

i have to admit that i love adderall.
michelle picked me up tonight and i chilled with her until like 2. now its 5:02 am and im still up and running.
i like to stay up at night and just think about life and just think that while everyone is sleeping im up here doing shit.
i love this.

it doesnt matter what time is going to bring in front of you, you will always be a person. just because i did things differently in my life..meaning that i might have screwed up many things in the past, that doesnt mean that i have no future.
fuck those haterrades.


this has been an amazing weekend. i realized many things, one is that without my friends i dont know where or how i would stand today. thanks you so much for your support and for making me feel better at those times when needed. blah blah blah no fowreel...hahah


so i got the pics of one of the best weekends ever...haha maybe i always say that, but thats a good thing.


( november rules )

today was an awesome day...went to the grove and met up with linda. we went to blair's house ang hung out there for a while. then xavier came and we walked around the entire day. then julie and cathleen came over too. it was an awesome day. i took pics for my photo class and normal pics too.


anyway today was super nice i love hanging out with friends and just have a chill laid back day...look at the pics



( :-) )

friday night i went to see avenue d at revolver with kevin, linda, xavier and sarah.
they're awesome !!
just look at the pics
!



( bang bang bang )

i think my mom and i are in better terms. my parents and i had also agreed in the fact that i must not live with them for one more year. now who knows what's gonna happen, but im happy we came into that conclusion.



so blaaaah i love how sometimes you get these blurry days that you don't even remember. yesterday was one of them because i passed out in 3rd period, woke up in the nurse's office, and then woke up again in my room this morning at 7:20. pfft who knows what happened in between.


so now i just found out that my stepdad is hitting my mom...no wonder she was being nice to me after school. life sucks sometimes.

so this weekend was amazing. i actually didnt expect it to be so good.

friday started out bad since kelly's party got broken out right when i got there. rachel justin and i got there and i swear i felt like i was in my school's lunch, except that i was wearing makeup and 6 inch heels. but it was all good. then i went to revolver with kevin, michelle, veronica and cathy and danced a lot.


saturday was an awesome day. picked up xavier and went to the grove. met up with linda, spencer, sarah and eric, and went to the show. i left right away though because i had to go to cathy's.
at cathy's i met up with veronica, julie and cathy and we all left to michelle's. at michelle's the party started. i finally got drunk as fuck, danced, WON 3RD PLACE IN THE COSTUME CONTEST (i should have won 1st the people at i/o said, but it wasnt up to them, the guy that won just had a lot of friends cheering for him) i got money and lots of free entrance passes and free drink tickets. i was shitfaced and passed out in michelle's bed. i truly had an amazing time. let the images explain.
in case you didnt know i was david bowie as ziggy stardust this entire weekend



( halloween rules )

okay so i might not be going to my school's homecoming due to the fact that the person i was going to go with decided not to go with me anymore at the last minute. but to be honest, i didn't care. instead of going to a homecoming dance with a group of people that i dont like and that i dont know i think im better off not going anyway.
since there was no senior homecoming for me, i decided to make last night my homecoming. last night was an amazing night, i saw most of the people and friends i truly love and danced to one of my favorite bands out there. i think that beats some stupid palmetto homecoming dance. i also got to go to an afterparty and completely danced my ass off.




i really want to thank my friends for being so awesome. what i appreaciate the most about a person is a friednship. it is so much more important than anything, and a good friend should never be taken for granted.



one person can really hurt you deeply, but if you have others to back you up i think you'll be okay.



so yesterday the faint rooooled. kelly, xavier, and me danced insanely the entire night, then ended up at taco bell. i saw soo many people. i had too much fun, fuck homecoming bitchesssss.

so the weekend started. i just came back from school, and i realized that in these past days ive been obsessing with a few things, which are:
-the dior spring/summer 05 collection (ive seen it online like 46 times so far)
-the new gwen stefani video (she is wearing fucking christian dior haute couture in it, how amazing is that)
-crack
-wet cunt
-the fact that im going to see the faint tonight
-!




so yesteerday i drove to south beach with xavier to get my ticket at uncle sam's, and we got these amazing chairs.
they are awesome. i also need to start looking for my halloween costume. im going to be david bowie in his ziggy stardust phace. so watch out bitches because im gonna look hot as fuck.

i am really really iritated right this second. i feel like everything i do is worthless. today has been a bad day.
i wish i could wake up everyday knowing that there's something out there that's going to make me happy.
i wish i was wanted by someone.
i wish there was someone out there that could make me smile and feel loved at the same time.
why haven't i felt love from someone else before? why do i feel weird about this?
fuck man i wish i could just have someone i could hold on to.




anyway today was pawlooza or whatever, i hate my school but i love these people

( palmetto rools )

yesterday vice was kinda wack, but i still had fun. i went with kevin, amanda and cesar. there was a lesbo school field trip and it was really funny. fannypack was cute, and they even gave me a beer. i danced way too much, up to the point that i looked disgusting because i sweat too much when i dance. this week has been awesome.


anyway...i finally got some pics from adriana's birthday, they're super cute.


( adri's burfday )

this weekend has been amazing so far. spider pussy on thursday night was super fun. i love dancing. i took photos with the photo crew, and bianca made me this amazing bitchin bracelet. i love it.
yesterday i went to the dash show and that shit was also fun, and i stayed for the esteban cortazar show. omg rachel pringle is hot as fuck, i love her, and she is such an amazing walker. then i met up at the beach with xavier, irina and albert because they left the show earlier.
OMG i saw my friend danielle who i havent seen in ages! i looove that girl and im so glad i found her again!
tonight im hitting up vice with kevin, and i know that will be fun. everything is kevin is FUNNN AS FUQQQ








people at palmetto go and check me out at the upcoming fucking panther prowl. wait no dont go.

this is amazing
this girl that goes to my school..her name is rachel and she's a model, yeah she's even signed with elite..anyway i was talking to her the other day and she told me to go to the esteban cortazar show this friday. she said that she will even introduce me to him because aparently they're friends, since her mom is a teacher at dash where cortazar graduated from. so today she told me that i could go for sure, and now im extremely excited.
yesss so this weekend might just be amazing. i also forgot that i have to hang out with mah baby gurl cathleen.
-spider pussy tomorrow night
-beach friday with photo crew
-CORTAZAR SHOWWW!!!!
-saturday hang out with cathleen
-?
-call meeee!

fuck school is boring...for some reason this week started out super bad. a lot of bad news, and things that went wrong. i wish everyday could be happy times.
okay so the vicepresident of the spanish honor society at my school just imed me and asked me if i could play a "men dressed as a woman" or a drag in the upcoming panther prowl. i said sure
hahahah
fuck those nigguhs

yesterday was fun as fuqq

okay so i just came back from taking my first SAT...who knows what i will get, but i'm really not going to think about it. so what i did to prepare for the SAT was that i went to churchills last night with cathy, kevin and his friend christy who is awesome. i had a lot of fun, and when they dropped me off at my house some cop stopped me. i was walking towards my house and that bitch starts flashing this big ass light all over my face. i was like what the fuck? then he asked me where i was going and i said hmm im going to my house, what do you want? whatever this world is obviously insane.

and omg YES this world is insane...especially when a good friend of yours that you really appreciate and care about starts acting all weird for no reason. i saw her this morning and she barely said hi to me...wtf? two weeks ago i was at her house doing her makeup, and being totally best friends. and now she avoids me like that? im not down with that...if i didnt care about my friendship with her i would never get so frustrated, but i just hope that things could be like hmm last week? i just want you to know that i love you no matter what, and that i hope that what you say to me is true, although im almost posotive it's not.

but overall im happy right now, i had fun yesterday and tonight is adriana's slumber party at my house! call that hoe and ask her whats down.

i juuust got back from chicken kitchen with stephanie and now im sitting here alone and tired...school is okay, but i just wish that i could do things right, for example do my homework and study for my classes. i have the sat in two days, and i kinda dont care which scares me a lot. but oh well, i think i shouldnt worrie so much, and if i dont then things should go by naturally.
okay so here are some upcoming events in my life...if any of these events are also in "your" list of upcoming events let me know and maybe we could participate in them together..okay..cool
SAT - this saturday
adriana's dinner party - saturday night
the faint - october 22
homecoming - october 23
SCAD admission interview and program presentation - october 30


P.S: i got the most disgusting zit on my face, and i know you have all noticed it, but i still want to thank you all for not barfing in my face since its so gross.



aite bitchess...go eat a cunt now

ahhhh!
how can some people be so fucking mean! how can some people purposely invite you to do things with them and then ditch you..or just flip out at you for no reason...or lets say i baked them a cake today and all they did was criticize it...especially when i call these people family..it's sad.
but yesterday was awesome...i hope i can spend everyday with people i like and people that like me for what i am, and don't judge me for stupid things such as the way i dress or the way i wear my hair. i love people that love me, and i want to say thanks to all the people that truly like being with me. if you're on of those people please leave a comment and tell me that you don't hate me, i really need to hear that now...pleease..

TONIGHT! ! !!%$^!!!~~

man i dont know whats going to happen with me...i feel bad for things i dont do..and then i feel bad for things that i do. i confuse myslef with anger that i shouldnt feel and sometimes i just want to lay down and dont do anything for days. but i know that that is not how it goes. i want to give up but i try not to. i suck ass...people should hate me for being a pussass...haha im just kidding..no people should love me

FUCK THIS STUPID HURRICANE SHIT!!!!!

WHY ARE THE BUSINESSES CLOSING DOWN? this shit is not even going to hit miami....PUSSY ASS NIGGAS!

today is really gonna suck..i can see it, at least i had fun yesterday

today is a fucking weird ass day...my head is spinning, i snorted too much adderall today, and i have too much to do.
today when i got home i got an email saying that my friend's brother got in an accident and died on sunday. and i didnt know what to do..he is one of my friends from paraguay, but i mean i dont want to call him, i wouldnt know what to say. i feel really bad right now...

hahaha last night was a success, i think...well i went to poplife, with rachel, karen and erica, and the three of them managed to get in which was awesome. we smoked and drank a bottle of white wine before, and that was also great. i think we all had fun.
i have so much homework for today though, i dont know how im going to do it all, but oh well. oh on friday i went to see that movie vanity fair. the plot was a disaster, but the costumes and the settings in the movies were just amazing. i want to get a haircut like the guys from that movie. i'm just contemplating the idea for now...hmm?

i just got home from school...yesterday i got my new license after smoking at cathy's house..yeah and the picture came out hideous due to that, but it's all good. i wonder what im doing this weekend. tomorrow i have plans to go to poplife, and hopefully that will work out.
if anyone wants to hang out with me please call me, i want this weekend to be fun.

school sucks dawg...seriously i want everything to end sometimes, i want to have fun, have money, have parents that are nice to me and that don't intimidate me, or just be happy.
last year things were actually 100 times worse, but i dont think i realized of how bad it was until now when things are good, but i still want them to be better...am i being spoiled?
but hey..theres no school tomorrow! GOD SAVE THE QUEEN!


the j. mendel show on monday also makes me happy

eugenia volodina in J. Mendel RTW spring 05

another exquisit look from the show, designed by the very uknown talent Gilles Mendel...and you thought they only did fur huh?